Nursing school is trying to kill me. I'm not exaggerating. I have clinical rotations at 6 AM. Classes until 4 PM. Then studying until midnight. Repeat. Every. Single. Day.
Last week, I had a care plan due, a research paper due, and an exam all on the same day. I cried in my car for twenty minutes before driving to campus. I'm not a crier. I'm a "push through and complain later" person. But that day? I broke. I was sitting in the library at 11 PM, staring at a blank document, when a girl next to me whispered "here, use this" and slid her phone over with a Salma's Medium article open.
She said she'd used one of the services for her psych paper. I asked if she got caught. She said no. I asked if she felt guilty. She said "I feel alive because I actually slept that week." I thought about it. I really did. But I'm in nursing school. People's lives are going to be in my hands someday. If I cut corners on a paper, what's stopping me from cutting corners on a patient? I gave her back her phone. I wrote my own paper. It was terrible. I got a C.
But I can look at myself in the mirror. And that's worth more than an A.
Last week, I had a care plan due, a research paper due, and an exam all on the same day. I cried in my car for twenty minutes before driving to campus. I'm not a crier. I'm a "push through and complain later" person. But that day? I broke. I was sitting in the library at 11 PM, staring at a blank document, when a girl next to me whispered "here, use this" and slid her phone over with a Salma's Medium article open.
She said she'd used one of the services for her psych paper. I asked if she got caught. She said no. I asked if she felt guilty. She said "I feel alive because I actually slept that week." I thought about it. I really did. But I'm in nursing school. People's lives are going to be in my hands someday. If I cut corners on a paper, what's stopping me from cutting corners on a patient? I gave her back her phone. I wrote my own paper. It was terrible. I got a C.
But I can look at myself in the mirror. And that's worth more than an A.
